Fun

So today was a good day. I woke up at 9:00 after a much needed sleep. I am still tired so I will be going to bed straight after Heroes tonight. Either that or I will have a nap tomorrow afternoon.

Anyway. I caught the train to Asquith where I met Xiamung and Mary!! And we also randomly ran into Emily there to who also was going to school. So we walked to school, picked up Mary's eng ext 2 major work, then go and talk to Mr Sekula for a bit. Then Mary, Xiamung and I walk to Louise's and she has only just got up and had breakfast!! And this was at 12:30pm! lol. Then we went and caught a train to Hornsby where we had lunch at Harry's - we had yummy fish and chips!! Then we all went and bought ourselves a $1 scratchie each ... and guess what? I won $6 !! "Beginners luck" lol. ... Then we walked around shops a bit - went to Myer where we had fun pointing out hideous clothes .. and Xiamung and I tried on some tops while Mary sat and laughed - they were nice tops and didn't deserve her cruel laughter - she was just jealous!! lol... Then mary left and I left soon after to get a train home. We had lots of fun with lots of laughs - a good day!! And can't wait until our city outing Xiamung!! Will be awesome.

And Justine called today! Was good to hear from her.

Yeah. so that was my day.

Has anyone tried the new hazelnut timeouts? They are nice I suppose, but they taste of coffee. Which is weird, cos there is no coffee in them. Ha. I remembered the first time I had a "coffee" was early this year. You know those flavoured straws? Well I had a mocha one and I drank it about 45 minutes before I did a biathlon. Which I originally thought would be a bad idea, but then it turned out to be good, cos it hyped me up so much that I did a really good time! And i didn't kill myself doing it! lol...

A two-toned day

Today was good. But then bad.

Good cos Dan invited me to go shopping with her and it was fun. And we both got some good buys! Such as a purple littlepurse/clutch/bag and a nice red top for me... and a skirt, leggings and a black bag for Danielle. And then we had chocolate milkshakes with Lexie at her work cos she was on a break. Was good to see her cos I havnt seen her in so long. After we finished looking around we walked back to Dan's house hoping it wouldn't start pouring rain on us (luckily it didn't), where we looked up some places on net where we could go this weekend. Which was all lots of fun and got me out of the house for once!! Thanx dan for a good day!!

But that note also leads me to the bad part of the day... I don't know what's wrong with me. My enthusiasm for the weekend is quickly evaporating - I really want to see the band on Friday, but I have noone to go with because my sister said I can't go with her (only because I was planning on wearing a red top and apparently she was too - which I didn't know) and then if friends are going out Friday night then it just becomes hectic! I could just go see band and then meet up with frieds... or go see band and not meet friends... or go with friends and not see band. ...I don't want to be organising it anymore. It would mean a lot less stress if I wasn't even invited - except that I don't wish that i wasn't invited cos that would make me sad too. And then I don't have a way to get home from the city adventure anyway, cos transport doesn't run to Berowra - instead it stops at Hornsby. So then it's just that the whole thing is a disorganised heap of stress that I could do without and I feel like I don't want to do anything anymore and would much rather curl up at home in front of the fire with a hot chocolate and watch a chick flick with my mum. ... Why does everything apart from that make me so anxious???

*sigh* I needed to let that out. I was talking to my mum about it and I had to just walk out of the room cos I could feel tears welling up and I didn't want to be the baby 'crying over spilt milk'.

On a brighter note, next Thursday I am going to pancakes on the rocks with a bunch of uni mates ... atm those ppl being Laura (huffy), Em, Megs and Liv ... so that should be a good day.

Anyway, msn conversations are going mad at the moment, so I must go.

How To Recognise a True Friend:

These are ways to recognise a true friend:

1. A true friend will call you at 1.30 in the night without any reason - just to talk, and when you surprised ask why he/she is calling so late, he/she will tell you that he/she knew that you would not be sleeping.

2. A true friend will invite you to his/her wedding (taking place 10'000km away) saying: "I just can not imagine that you would not be there to share this moment with me". And it will be equally obvious for you that no matter what the distance or the cost is, you will be there.

3. A true friend will send you funny emails like this: "I assume that you are already fully booked up for next week, but in case there is a gap in your busy social life next Wednesday, you could join me to watch the Hitchcock film "A Lady Vanishes" at nine at the Castro." And no matter what, you will find a gap in your busy social life.

4. A true friend will send you an sms at 3 in the morning to share good news...

5. A true friend can afford to contact you only once every few months.

6. With a true friend you can talk for hours every day and still not have an impression that even 1% of things that you wanted to discuss got covered during these conversations (eventhough you've known each other for years...).

7. A true friend accepts you as you are, e.g. "I really like your blog. It is very Monika!(and that is a compliment!)" Hmm, I have to think about that. What did the author want to say?

8. Conversation with a true friend within a split second can become the most serious and important conversation of your life.

9. A true friend will let you get burnt, but afterwards will stay with you as long as necessary until your wounds heal.

10. A true friend will not let you leave.


To My Dear Friends, I love you above anything. Without you I would be nothing.

And...

Wow. I didn't blog all weekend - that's a first! ok. so update time. Friday - I did get to drive to danielle's so that was good. And it was a fun night... (esp since Elise and I are so good at Scrabble... lol). Saturday... I didn't really do anything... Jeff had soccer and beat the other team 6-0. Sunday we went to my Nana and Pop's for their 50th anniversary luncheon ... yumm - apple pie and cream, strawberries, mudcake and cheesecake.... yummm. Then I bludged around at home and did nothing really until Ugly Betty started. Then Gray's Anatomy and then bed! Ahhh, beautiful Sundays.

And I know I said my room would be tidy after today... but it most likely won't be until the end of the week... I feel so guilty!!!

And I have a chocolate slice in the oven at the moment, so my house smells tasty. And I think i will go and cook a pasta dish for lunch... undecided on type/flavour though... should I go alfredo, tomato & garlic, garlic & mushroom, or just an easy maccaroni cheese? Decisions, decisions...

And guess what? Paris Hilton will be let out this week... what is the world coming to? She originally got 45 days, appealed and reduced to 23, went to jail, broke down, released on house arrest, case reviewed and back to jail for full 45 days, and then preparing to be released after less than 2 weeks! How is that justice?????

And I have had a thought - I would love to be a doctor. Not like a GP, but a full scale doctor. Like in a hospital. Being a surgeon would also be awesome. I think I have found something that I am actually interested in. Except the downside is the many years of study...and the $$.

Anyway. It's lunch time.

Todays plans

So today didn't go exactly as I had planned. Remember I promised to tidy my room? Well that didn't happen. (I will do it by the end of Monday) Instead I went shopping with mum to get "a few things"... which turned into a whole trolley full! And then we went to my Nana & Pop's because it is their 50th wedding anniversary today!! And we are having a "party" on Sunday. And then I cam home and had lunch, bludged around a bit and watched some of Oprah and Days of Our Lives... (shhh - i didnt tell you that) and then .... (finally) .... i got my hair cut! And the ends are layered a bit! and in a few weeks I'm getting it layered the whole way up! So I can't wait until then!!

So what else... while shopping I bought a cute puppy (soft toy) for my brother cos I have been helping him with his spelling and he has been getting 100% (thanks to me lol). Aren't I a nice sister?

And now I am writing on here and in a minute I really must go and wrap Danielle's present and write in her card and hopefully Mum has finished finding/printing the photo. And then it will be time to leave for Dan's house.... and I so hope i am allowed to drive. I plan to just be first out the door and just get in the driver's seat... But I want to stop at the bottle shop on the way.... lol. I mean we can't celebrate uni finishing and Dan turning 18 without a drink!!

Anyway, must dash. Hope y'all have a fun Friday... or a freaky Friday... or a fantastic, fabulous Friday....

The River

"Oh babe, let my lovin' ease your pain
Bring your burning skin to my river once again
I'll give you life
Oh baby, let my lovin' ease your pain tonight"

So I am bored. Only my 3rd day of freedom and already I am bored.

I should really tidy my room… but how boring…and the effort! … I really should though… maybe tomorrow. Ok. I will do it tomorrow. I will. And there are going to be no excuses. Promise. And then after that I will alter my resume and find out about Curves. And then I will ask my Mum extremely nicely if she would please cut my hair… (and I will have to be nice today too, cos I havn’t been all that ‘nice’ lately….).

Sorry?

ok, so u know that feeling when you think someone's mad at you, but you don't know why??? Well that's how I feel now. Mainly with one person, but kind of also with 2 other people. ... so thats not good. I currently am getting the impression that 3 people are mad/annoyed at me - does that just sound like I'm being paranoid to you? If anyone is mad at me, or if I have insulted, upset, pissed off etc anyone, please tell me!! Cos then maybe I could fix what I did, or offer an apology...

I feel lost. Do I have any true friends? Because I feel like there is noone I can talk to. And I know people are going to turn around and say that of course I can talk to them, but I don't know if I can - i mean, i can't just start talking to someone in that way, uninvited. And when I feel like I could/would talk to a friend, the timing never seems right. I'm surrounded by people all the time, but I have never felt more alone. I feel like the world is turning and I'm missing it all. Like there is something weighing me down or caging me in so that I can't live my life how I want it to be. Maybe it's my uncertainty, my lack of confidence, my inability to believe in myself, that’s holding me back? But how on Earth do I change that??? ... and people who notice that i have no confidence just say things like "think positive" , "believe in yourself" and "just go with the flow", "stop stressing" "don't worry - its alright" or "it will be fine".... but you know what? How can I just change the way I think? I have tried, but it's not something that you can just change like flicking a switch! They all make it sound so easy! And how can they say it's alright, when it's obviously not?

Wow. Big rant there. Sorry. I hope it wasn’t in bad taste.

How open are you?

So I did this quiz... by following a link from an old old blog of Elise's... It is to see 'How open are you?' and this is my result:


You Are 37% Open

You are open at times, but generally you don't let many
people into your inner world. It's possible that you have
a friend or two that knows you well. But to most people,
you are a total mystery.


And the sad thing is that this is mostly true :(

Moving on to another point... it is sunny today! Be-yoootiful weather right about now. With gorgeous blue skys that I havn't had the pleasure of seeing for awhile now.... I feel like getting out the little summery skirts and dresses and going for a drive with Megan and having a picnic somewhere pretty and then staying out all day having fun, playing good music in the car and singing along and then buying icecreams on the way home! That sounds like my idea of fun - well for today anyway. hmmm... Summer... I'm all ready for it!!

So tell me. Tell me something interesting. Anyone want to help me plan a 'day'? Like a day where we go venturing into city and ... (OH - Elise - our brunch outing - when do u have hols? Is it the same time as the school hols?) like find somewhere cooool and maybe eat some food. And take camera with us to document the day...? That's one idea... or we could like go driving somewhere to have a picnic and then get icecreams ...lol (something like what i mentioned earlier) .... or have a Slumber party!!!!! Yeah.... and talk and talk and talk - cos we need to catch up now that we are halfway through our first year post school. So ... anyone interested in doing something??? And any preferences or ideas? Does anyone want to help me organise (someone should say yes here, cos when i organises things on my own they tend not to work out... or the idea falls flat... or i get discouraged and give up)?

ok. I seem to have hit a wall ... in that my mind has gone completely blank... There was lots more that I was going to say… but I seem to have forgot about those things, due to a much more melancholy train of thought that steamrolled all my other thoughts away…. so I’m sorry, but that shall be all for now.

P.S. I advise you all to get out and enjoy the day while this sunny weather decides to grace us with its presence. That’s if you’re not stuck inside studying for exams or working on assignments or at work/uni/tafe…. Unlike me – me who’s free from uni for 5 weeks and 6 days.

The non-Midas Touch

Ok. So you've heard of the midas touch, right? (Dionysus offered Midas his choice of whatever reward he wanted. Midas asked that whatever he might touch should be changed into gold) Hmmm, well I don't have it. No. I have the Emma touch. (ha - original... not) Yup. Lately, everything I touch falls down (well to use the word everything is a bit of a gross exaggeration, but it fits with the whole midas story). Yes. Example: Last night, I walk into my room and flick the light switch to 'on', as per usual. But funnily enough, my room does not fill with light. No. Instead I hear this bang, a shattering sound, and a ping sound... yes... my lightbulb had somehow snapped in half, leaving half in the socket and the other half falling to the ground. And I have to admit that i jumped and 'gasped' - can't say I was expecting that to happen.
Example 2: 3 of my posters fell down last night within an hour of each other
Example 3: My chinese things (dont know what they're called) fell off my lamp (thats where they were hanging)

But on a brigher note... I finished exams today!! YAY! And then Ash drove me to hornsby where I went shopping and got Dan's bday present and i also bought myself a pair of funky jeans! They're pretty. And i also ran into Brendan (uni friend) in the party shop so that was good cos I havn't seen him since last Monday.

Hmmm... what else? Don't know, but if i think of anything I can blog without feeling guilty cos I got NO MORE STUDY!!!! And a 6 week break!!!!

Hope y'all feeling as high as me!


EDIT/UPDATE: My Dad replaced the lightbulb right... and fixed it all up... but then the next morning, I am sitting at my desk, studying away, and I realise that I have been sitting in darkness (for i dont know how long). I did have my light on, but the lightbulb blew and i didnt notice straight away... so that new lightbulb lasted only about 14 hours! yeeaaaahhh... thats all!!

Happy birthday ... and the kooks!

I love this song (she moves in her own way) by The kooks!!! i first heard it a few months ago and i loved it straight away... maybe cos it's new/different to what i normally listen to/hear on the radio...? Thought maybe you might like to hear it too... check it out down the bottom of blog page... (click on one and it will start playing up the top of the page)

A BIG HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TO DANIELLE!!!!!! Hope you have as much fun as you can with the study that you have ... and yes - we definitely need to go out!!!

Also, HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY TO LAUREN!!!!!! same goes for you with the study.... make sure you go out and party after chemistry - you'll need it after that lol!

And also HAPPY 21ST TO BRIANA!!!!!! (not that you even know about my blog...) i had fun at your party! And I will prob be seeing you 7th July...

Yes. So many birthdays for the one day.

Oh - grays anatomy... ugly betty... anyone watch last night??? They were both gooood!!!

but i am procrastinating.... study to do....will all be over tomorrow...

Ok, so yesterday I got home about 4:15 from an exam that was meant to finish at 4pm... from Lindfield... go figure!
Omg - Aaron (my lecturer for functional kinesiology) almost got me thrown out of the exam! (well not on purpose)... ok I'll explain.... it was a multiple choice exam, and he put in the most random anwers ... things like "wags of a goose bride"... and "the arm would just fall off" ... and "none of these answers can possibly be right".... and i laughed out loud during the test, which wouldn't have been so bad if I hadn't managed to score the desk smack bang front middle, right in front of supervisor's desk!! ....
So yes. It was a fun exam because of that ... well if you exclude the questions where you sit there and think... "that's easy - its c. ...(pause and think)... but wait, it cant be c. It has to be this one.... but it cant be that one either. And I already said it cant be that one. So it cant be those ones, but I could put either of these..... but do i risk changing my answer - cos if i do and then get it wrong, I will kick myself!" ...... yeeaaahhhh... sometimes i think mc exams are more torture than they're worth....
And another thing... when/if you are driving me somewhere, don't be like Ash (uni mate) and start telling me about all the close calls you've had while driving ... it just freaks me out. I dont want to think about things like that when I'm in a car!!!

But I was happy yesterday. It was a good day for me. No particular reason (well maybe cos i only have one more exam to go, and its mechanics so it should be ok).

And tonight i have a 21st to go to!! It should be fun cos it's Briana's party - and she makes everything fun! ... and on the topic of birthdays - her birthday is actually on Monday - the same day as Dan's 18th and Lauren's 19th!! So it should be a good week!! (but expensive too lol ... not that i mind cos they are all really good friends of mine)

Ok... so I should go and get a little bit of study in for mechanics of human motion before i get too excited about tonight....

Hope y'all have a good Saturday!!

...

I am currently sitting in library at uni... studying ... (well not at this exact moment - i am blogging... but im meant to be studying!)
I have my final exam for functional kinesiology in an hour! And then it will all be over! (except for mechanics exam next Tuesday... but that should be ok)
And study is hard... esp when there are people somewhere over my right shoulder giggling behind the big shelves of books!
I feel like driving... it would definitely beat sitting here... it is surprisingly cosy in the library today... and Chris (uni friend) cut his hair!! And Brendan and I were standing at the door of the cafeteria trying to see if anyone was in there that we knew... and we didnt recognise Chris - there's this guy waving at us... and im just like "hmmm - that guy looks like Chris" ... normally he has cool curly hair... like a mini afro - and we have never seen it short before (well he showed my his license and he had short hair then, but that doesnt count). ... not that this would interest you as you have no idea who i am talking about!
Anyway. Enough babble - got to do some last minute study ... i aim to get at least 70% in this exam, so i really must go!
Have fun y'all whatever you might be doing!!

Origin blues

It was a sad night last night. NSW lost :(

Origin

GO BLUES!!!!!

That about says it all. We HAVE TO WIN!!!!!

So guess what?! I come home from MPO exam last night, to find a yummy roast dinner waiting for me (I dont normally like roast dinners, but there was pumpkin!! yum...) and... you know what else?! Four new dvds sitting on the tv... We now have Shrek 3 (jealous juicy?)!!!! and Spiderman 3!!!! and PIRATES 3!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and also something called Wonder Dogs (has cute puppies on cover... a movie for Jeff I'd say... but im still gonna watch it.) How cool is that?

oh and just a whinge... but who puts an exam on at dinner time?! (uts, thats who) my exam last night was from 6pm to 8:10pm.... but i was naughty and took in a cadbury macademia chocolate bar and ate that in the exam.... yummm. Oh but then i got to drive home from uni!! And it was fun!!

And i really really need to study for my functional kinesiology exam which is on Friday... so that's all for today.

Annoying noises...

The sound of someone cutting their nails. The sound of people eating. .... These are THE most annoying noises!!! I can handle scraping nails down a blackboard - i do that myself, but nail cutting and eating are just... i dont know. They make me cringe. ...Anyone else got something they hate the sound of?

Mr Darcy

So last Thursday when I was in Hornsby, I went into Borders to have a look around (I never, ever go into bookshops when I dont intend to buy anything... but i ended up staying there for ages!) and anyway, I found ... 'Mr Darcy's Diary'!! It is basically the story of 'Pride & Prejudice', but in the form of a diary, from Mr Darcy's view! I read some of it and it's pretty good ... and funny! But you need to read the actual story first. ... Yes, just thought I would share that with you, for those 19th century readers out there. ... but i have always wondered why everyone loves Mr Darcy? (re. BBC series) I mean Colin Firth isn't that good looking! Bingley is much cuter in that series.... (Crispin... such a funny name!)

And some bad news: Knights lost to the Tigers! :( Now we are back down to 8th spot. ... But did anyone watch the game last week when Penrith beat Manly??? That was THE best game in a long time! I knew one of my teams would beat the evil Eagles.

I am stuffed full - my Dad made pancakes for breakfast this morning... and they are so good, but so filling. I need to go drink some water.

darkness

I figured out last night why I like dark weather so much ... was just lying in bed (probably only got a few hours sleep - cos i couldnt sleep) thinking and listening to ipod, when i realised why. Yes. But that's a story for another time... just thought i would document that thought ... although most of you will already know that it's because im a "dark person. An evil, nasty person who thrives on darkness."

And 'Grays Anatomy'.... tonight was an alright episode. I have to admit that I am hooked. It's not even that fantastic - i just watch it out of routine, because my sister does. .... I am a 'Heroes' junkie - i love that show! And origin is on this week!! Which means no 'House'!! Yes! That show was seriously good the first few series... but now it is like so repetitive..... and boring. Wednesday night is origin all the way ... go blues!

Claustrophobia ... and justice

Ok. So you start to feel claustophobic when you're in tiny, small, enclosed spaces, right? Well what about when you can't avoid something? Do you feel claustophobic then? Like you're being tortured, or tormented or just being made to suffer? Like you're being caged in and everywhere you turn it's there? Cos that's how I feel... ...one example is ADFA. There are ads on every second web site you open. Ads on the radio, every hour, on every channel. On tv ads. On posters at uni. On the bus! I come into contact with one every day! And i just want them all to go away!



And another thing - Paris Hilton! Just because she is rich and famous, she thinks she should be allowed special treatment when she does something wrong! I am glad the judge made her go back to jail - she broke the law and now she needs discipline and punishment, just like everyone else who breaks the law. She shouldn't be treated any differently than the less fortunate. ... and some people are walking around with "free paris" t-shirts! That only tells everyone that you are as stupid as she is... either that or you don't believe in justice.

Ok. So Justine said that anything is blog worthy... even what I had for breakfast...

So this morning for breakfast I had grilled cheese and tomato on toast... then after breakfast I hit the books - not literally... but i sure do feel like hitting them - not that that would accomplish anything apart from a sore hand, but still!

Reading fat sunday papers is a good way to procrastinate... and making chocolate pudding with hot chocolate sauce then eating it while watching gilmore girls is even better - which is what i plan to be doing in 10 minutes!

On Thursday i was rejected from a job... which in a way i am glad, because i partly didn't want to be accepted, but the rejection part still hurts. But I still got paid for trial day ... and it means I can still bask in my freedom! Except that it makes me feel lazy, because i'm not doing anything... except it gives me more time to do uni work... except that i dont use that time for uni work anyway, so then i feel guilty as well!

Anyway, gtg cos it is almost 3:00... !

But one more thing ... "I think I must have burnt my bum!" - that's what i thought my sister said, but she actually said "I think i must have burnt my gum (at lunch)" .... yes, caused some confusion and laughter!! I love mishearing things!

Myspace

Talking about myspace...

"but it's fun!"

"yeah. so are donuts... but you dont have them all the time, because they make you fat... so you shouldnt spend so much time on myspace, cos it makes you fat too."

so as you can see, i really dont like myspace... but i agreed to let Justine creat a blog for me... which is very similar... so really i am being kind of hypocritical. But at least I know that I am.... And not being all ignorant and 'BLIND' like some people (... but thats another story)!

Had a dream a few nights ago that i got my Ps after just 27hrs of driving - wishful thinking! But I am 1/2 way there - I have 25hrs - of which 14hrs i have got up over the past 2 months. So I'm happy with how it's going.

Oh and I found a fun blog a few weeks ago... http://rateyourstudents.blogspot.com/ ... it's teachers/professors whinging about students... so you might find it harsh, but i thought it was funny/unbelievable...

I have a Steph McIntosh song stuck in my head... and i dont know why - i just woke up singing it!! And it is soooo annoying!

Anyway, must get back to study! Not going to be a fun weekend!

Pirates...!

Guess what?? I saw Pirates 3 on Tuesday!! I loved it! Except it was just a tad confusing... What do you people think? It was better than the 2nd one... but Will! Now he and Elizabeth can only see each other every 10 yrs :( .... but they have a son! That's cool... Anyone want to have a Pirates marathon with me when the 3rd on comes out on dvd? Ha! We should have it on national pirate day...

Anyway i think 3 postings in one day is too much. But it is new and like the name suggests (thanx to Justine), i am crazy. But good crazy. You'll figure it out. Unless you are like me and just have an infatuation with food... then it might take you awhile. lol.

Thanks

Thanks justine for setting this up... and thanks also for your disclaimer.... very nice.
And hello to everyone - if anyone actually ever decides to read this!
And now i really must get back to studying... tests next week! And then I'm finished my 1st semester of uni - thats exciting in a scary kind of way!
Hope you all have a good day - its pouring rain here ... lots of fun!

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